Guilt of a Different Kind

I have had my share of "mommy guilt" throughout the last 5 years as a working mom. My heart broke more than a few times when I had to drop off my kids at daycare when they were extra tired, a little sick, or just plain needy. When I coached, I was so sad on my game nights when I knew that I wouldn't even see the kids before they went to bed. Now that I am a stay-at-home mom, I am still having guilt...just different guilt. I feel bad that Adilyn has to be at school everyday while Kacy, Brooke, and I are at home. Adilyn never got to stay home; she was in school from 11 weeks old until forever. I feel so bad that I don't even want to do anything fun with Kacy because I feel like I am betraying Adilyn. I know it's silly because it's not my fault that she is in Kindergarten, but I just feel bad that this is the first year that I am at home, and she can't be with me. Today was the worst! We had a birthday party today at Dewberry Farms, and Adilyn loves that place almost as much as she loves birthday parties! I tried to keep it from her, but of course it slipped out. I honest to goodness did not think that she was going to get out of the car this morning when I went to drop her off. Luckily, she did get out after I told her that the party was not going to be very much fun, and that there were going to be a lot of babies there! I just felt so bad for her. How bad would it suck to be the ONLY one that has to leave the house everyday?!? Even Cory stays home. He is working, but he is still home. Oh well, maybe I will get over feeling bad, and maybe I can finally work up the nerve to actually go do some fun activities with Kacy before she starts Kindergarten! :)
I plan to do a post on working vs. stay-at-home, but my life is in such chaos right now with moving and house stuff that I don't really feel like I am getting an accurate picture of being a stay-at-home mom. Maybe one day we will have some semblance of a routine, and I can feel like I am being productive and have a purpose!