And a door closes...

I have been a teacher for ten years. Not to be cocky, but I think I am a pretty good teacher. Okay, let me rephrase that...I may not be a great teacher (because I am kinda lazy sometimes), but kids enjoy my class. Maybe they like the fact that I am laidback and relaxed. Maybe it's because I try to make learning a little fun and a little different. Maybe they like it because I try to treat each student like an indvidual, and I am real with them. Who knows? But none of that mattered last week when Katy decided to terminate my contract. Long story short...when I took the job as an elementary PE teacher, I had to resign my dual coaching contract and be rehired as a new employee. Because of that I was on a probationary contract like a brand new teacher would be. Katy had to lay off over 300 teachers on probationary contracts, and I was one of them. I am not sure exactly how those 300 were chosen, but regardless, I was laid off. I kind of expected it to happen because they are going down to 1 PE teacher for our campus, but it was still a shock to get the news. I held on to a small glimmer of hope that I would just be reassigned somewhere else. When they called me down to the principal's office, it was such a surreal moment. I walked in, sat down in the same spot that I was interviewed in just one year ago. As they told me all the information, I kept remembering how I felt in the interview. I was hoping with every fiber of my being that I would get this job. Now, looking back...what a mistake that was! Had I stayed at Beck, I would have been fine. I would have not even been on the radar to be laid off. You never know how the choices that you make will play out in the big picture, but I sure never thought I would be unemployed just because I took a new job! I feel sad, disappointed, nervous, and uncertain; but I know that something good will come of all this. Unfortunately, I can keep saying that all I want, but it doesn't change the way I feel right now.