Sick Babies Make Me Sad

Saturday morning I woke up at 5:30am, left my warm bed, my sleeping husband, and baby to go stand outside in the 32 degree weather and work a high school track meet. Believe me, this was not my first choice of things to do on my favorite day of the week. Anyway, it is what it is and that's part of my job. Early in the morning, I got a message from Cory that said Adilyn was grumpy. I called him when I got a chance, and I hear her screaming in the background. He said that she had been grumpy off and on all day. Of course, when I got home she was sweetly sleeping on his chest. When she woke up, she seemed okay, but not her normal happy self. I checked her temperature around 6pm and it was 102.5. I started to panic because I didn't know what was a "bad" temperature. I called my cousin, and she assured me that she was probably okay. I put her to bed, and she whined a few times throughout the night... until 3am that night. She woke up screaming her head off. I went upstairs to rescue her, brought her downstairs, and rocked her back to sleep. She wanted me to hold her all night; I felt so sorry for her. Long story short...Sunday she was okay - again until 3am. Monday morning, I woke her up to feed her before I went to school. When I started to leave, the poor girl woke up screaming again. It was so hard to leave her; I think that it was the first of many mornings that I'm going to be sad when I leave her with someone who isn't me. We took her to the doctor today, and lo and behold...it was another double ear infection. She's getting better, but was still sad tonight. It's the worst thing in the world to have your child hurt and not be able to magically make it better. I realized tonight why some parents "baby" their babies. It's just hard to see them sad. I can totally see the perspective of wanting to make it better for your kids if you can. Of course, many parents go too far with that. I think it's good for kids to feel some sadness, hurt, and disappointment in their lives because things cannot be picture perfect forever...with that being said, if I could have snapped my fingers and made Adilyn's hurt disappear, I would have done it tonight, in a heartbeat.